Wednesday 6:23pm
I have recently found out how bad my procrastinitation is by doing anything and everything in my power to make it so I wont complete my assessment assignment by tonight. I promised myself that I would do it Tuesday after class so I would have this day to do another project that is due pretty quick here soon, but all I have managed to do is put myself up for failure because completing my assignments way ahead of time never happens. Instead I took a 5 hour...
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Thursday 5:32pm
Besides procrastination, I apparently have a problem with starting something and forgetting to complete it, such as this blog. I am learning that Procrastination and failing to stay on task is not a good combination to have. How I have made it this far in life is beyond me. I guess something had grabbed my attention right in the middle of my sentence unabling me to finish until this current time (ya right! wait...what was I doing again?) haha. Im just going to pick up where I left off......long nap, which was not planned but well needed. Then I hung out with my bro and we made chocolate chip cookies while watching funny youtube videos. Again, I tried to discipline myself by forcing myself to buckle down and get some work done on wednesday because I have a full day with no school or work and a bunch of free time to do things like that. Of course, (Im now blaming all this stress and pressure of my school assignments that have me not thinking as clearly as I do on my normal days) because I absent mindedly locked myself out of my bedroom. This would have not been quite so bad if I had not locked myself out of my trucks 5 days prior to this exact incident. I will have to admit that my luck with keys is less than fortunate. Since all school books were locked inside my room I was unable to get them which put me farther behind on my homework schedule. oh dear! what ever will I do!... Even once I finally got inside my room and retrieved my books I was still finding it difficult to motivate myself to start my homework. After watching a couple episodes of the first season of one tree hill, scimming over pinterest and facebook, email, window shopping online, looking for anything good on kijiji, visiting the autotrader cite, checking on the price of flights to jamaica, mexico, bora bora, etc, looking up cruises, seeing how far it is to drive to florida, going back to facebook to make sure I didnt miss a message or someone commenting on one of my fabulous photos, sending a text to everyone in my contacts list I finally decided to start the title page of my essay.  I finished my assignment for the most part now but Im just trying to get motivated to write my conclusion...and thats why I am blogging....Procrastination and staying on task is not even the main topic I really wanted to talk about. Wow you know when its bad when you procrastinate talking about procrastination. yikes! My main reason for writing a blog ,besides the fact I just havent done one in awhile was to talk about dreams. Not like life goals but just the crazy, sometimes funny or night terror dreams you have while you are sleeping. The dream that inspired me to write this blog about dreams in the first place was somewhat frightening. The dream starts off with me watching the news about this velociraptor apocalypse that just broke out somewhere in the world and I say to myself unphased, "well I hope that doesnt happen here." I should have knocked on wood or something because in my dream it does happen here. So I go to bed and I wake suddenly because I hear my door slowly creek open and in walks this monster (a velociraptor) and I had to somehow get out of my room without it hearing me or bumping into it for that matter, as my room is for the most part pitch black. You can probably imagine my concern for my life at that moment as I could hear this raptor get closer and closer to me as I try to sneak away. The only thing that saved me was my rather untidy room inwhich the raptor was stumbling on things that I had carelessly thrown on the floor out of pure exhaustion the night before. While this raptor was running into things and tripping over objects, I was able to escape unscathed. Then I raced to my truck and (thankgoodness it was unlocked and I did not lock myself out with the keys inside or that would have sealed my fate of being eaten by a dinosaur) drove out to stirling to make sure my family was safe. When I rushed into my house and shut the door behind me I came face to face with another raptor and before I could run anywhere or the dino could bite off my head, my mom came running down the hallway screaming "no, this one is nice!" and of course in your dream that seemed like a normal observation and you dont give it a second thought. I dont recall any more of this dream but I was a bit shaken up about it because it seemed so real. I was a bit scared to leave my house for school that morning so I ended up texting my friend Porsha wanting to walk to school with her so I wouldnt have to brave the nightmare of walking to school alone in fear I may or may not be attacked by a velociraptor. It might sound pathetic for a young mature adult such as myself to still have nightmares, especially, since I have "egore" to sleep with...

ya seriously no idea why I wouldnt feel safe with that....

What did I get out of having this dream?.... besides that I am never cleaning my room because having a messy room may save my life one day. Well I googled this and a non-scholarly, not legit cite told me that seeing a dinosaur in your dream, symbolizes an outdated attitude. and that I may need to discard my old ways of thinking and habits.
To dream that you are being chased by a dinosaur, indicates your fears of no longer being needed or useful. Alternatively, being chased by a dinosaur, may reflect old issues that are still coming back to haunt you. I know, I have way too much time on my hands or my procrastination problem are really serious. I dont know if I really believe that, I feel the same way about horescopes and fortune cookies, that its all just a bunch of BS. Another freaky thing about dreams that happens quite frequently to me is that when I am just about to wake up, I dream that I cant wake up. Its really weird because I think that I am awake but I just cant move because Im still asleep. I know its hard to understand me if this doesnt happen to you but its actually quite terrifying. Your trying to wake yourself up but your cant because you cant move. The scariest was when I was sleeping at a friends house, there were 3 of us in the bed and I was on one end facing the door and I wanted to turn over and I couldnt because I was paralyzed with sleep. I could see the door in my sleep which made me believe I was awake and I just couldnt move. I was trying to reach out to grab my sister so she could shake me awake but the farthest I got was to stretching out my fingers. Im trying to scream or yell or say anything but I cant! Then suddenly an alarm sounds and I wake up and my hands have been under my head the entire time. SOOOO WIERD! I looked this up one time because after it happening a couple times I thought I needed to self diagnose me with utter mental craziness and I found that it is quite common and what happens is that your mind wakes up before your muscles and body and there is just this period where your paralyzed or something. I dunno it was awhile ago when I looked it up and I'm too lazy to get the proper information about it right now. After talking about dreams in class, I was interested to hear other's stories of the unuasual dreams they have had. I know I can go on and on about mine but I'm pretty tired and need some sleep. so goodnight, sweet dreams