I cant tell you all the crazy things that I have been doing since the last time I have blogged because I do actually have to start on my homework sometime tonight. Lets start with the most exciting though! On September 15th I became an Aunt. As exciting as that is, I didnt honor this role I was suddenly given as most people do. Up to the day she was born, I thought that it would be nothing but a burden on my already sad and pathetic life to have a baby come and live with my family. To my surprise, it has been nothing but a special gift. I would even say this when she is crying too. Its amazing how much love you have for someone that you thought would ruin everything. This doesnt make me sound like the best sister or prize aunt of the year but I am ashamed to admit that I really did not want this baby. I thought her crying would interfere with my beauty sleep and ultimately put a decline in my school grades (not that procrastination is helping with that...). I thought that the last thing this family needed was to raise another baby. I thought these things right up until I saw my neice for the first time and became overwhelmed with love and compassion when I finally got to hold her. Now, I try to look at things in a positive light. She is so cute and tiny and its strange how when I have a bad day I just hold lil charly for a bit and I feel a lot better and motivated to try harder in my own life. I even enjoy changing her diaper. I know this is all good practice for me when I eventually have children so I am eager to learn everything I can so I wont be terrified for when those days of child bearing come for me. Here is some pics of me hanging out with charlytard:
My and an unhappy charzard. haha This is me trying to soothe a crying baby. Sticking a camera in her face doesnt help just so ya'll know.
I let her throw up on me and then I took pride into changing her. She doesnt look to happy here either. 
There! all done! 
Obviously after throwing up on me she needed to burp so I helped her do that. 
Sometimes I let her be a bro with me. 
Time for our close up. 
Just walking the floor with charly
Sometimes I let her help me with my homework (pfft like I actually do my hw) or socialize on facebook (yep thats more like it).
The only thing that really annoys me about this whole new baby situation is the people of society who say the oddest things that either makes me really angry and hate my life even more. The one that particularly bugs me the most is when people say "oh Kara, a baby looks good on you?" Where do I begin with this sentence? I get Kara is married and therefore a baby is usually the next step and this comment is given by other members of the church to encourage her to have a baby. It bothers me because first of all, Do I look especially haggard with a baby, just because I am not married? Does a baby not look good on non married people? Next issue with this statement that I have is basically summed up to that Kara is no ready to have children then myself. Sure, she is married but no one is 100% ready to raise a child. Even when you are financially stable, done school, or planned to have children. I am of course speaking for myself, who has never raised any children but I know its not easy peasy! What Im trying to say is, Im sure that if I had a baby without being married, I'd still be a good mother and its not like I wouldnt have any assistance. I know I probably blew this statement out of proportion but it seriously bugged me to no end to hear everyone say this and my blog is a perfect place to vent. On to saying number two, " So Kara is married, Tasha had a baby, what is the other one up to?" Oh my cherry cheese pie! Am I nothing because I havent reached these major life milestones yet? Where does finishing up my last year of school and getting a degree rank on the scale of life's accomplishments? Im sure its not a 0 but Thanks for making me feel like one though. Can you see how these sayins can send mixed messages into a poor brain like mine? Your nothing if you are not married or have a baby but if you have a baby when your not married then it looks ugly on you. I cannot win.
Next exciting thing. I started my last year of school on september 10th and so far I am really liking it alot. At first I was really nervous to start practicum but since I have gotten feedback that I am doing really well I feel a whole lot better about it. Im not sure if I am allowed to post where I am doing my practicum for confidentiality reasons but I can say that its a bit out of my comfort zone and I am really enjoying learning and participating in the activities and counseling sessions. I am still scared to actually be done school and out in the social work field all by myself but I guess I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.
I know I have written a ton of blogs on my many failed attempts at exercise and dieting but I have actually been doing really good with running everyday. I am not sure why I started running but I remember it was a tuesday (which is weird cuz I never start anything on a tuesday. Everything has to be started on a monday even if I mess up on a monday, we start next monday). Anyway, I decided to go on a run and at first I almost killed myself and had to stop numerous of times to catch my breath, get rid of a cramp, cry, whatever and I finally completed the 5k in almost an hour. When I arrived home I was even more pathetic rolling around on my front lawn begging for water haha dont judge. Instead of thinking that I should be good for a month, returning to my usual routine of television and food, I tried running again. This time I only allowed myself to walk for 5 min. The next day I limited to only walking one street which took 2min, and by friday I had ran the total 5.3 km. Now I run the same route everyday and I find that I can keep going so its my goal to be able to run 10k by the end of this month. yay me! Surprisingly, I actually like running and its one of the most important things I absolutely have to do everyday for my own personal self care. Running in the rain is especially fun, and actually kind of relaxing...well as relaxing as a run can be anyway. Its actually almost time for me to run so gotta run, to run haha
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back now and it only took me 35 min to run 5.3 km which was 3 min faster then yesterday. go me!. Because I was so bored today I wrote a test that consisted 23 questions about me, to see how well my family knew me. Turns out my family doesnt really know me at all haha and they arent even that hard of questions. I will write them down on this blog and you can test yourself if you wish in the comments below to see if you know me as well as you think you do.
1. What is my favorite color?
2. what is my favorite animal?
3. what is one of the next places I would like to travel to?
4. what is my least favorite body part on myself?
5. who is my fav. country singer?
6. what is my fav. food?
7. what food have I been craving lately?
8. what is one of my favorite things to do? (list anything)
9. what is my fav brand of clothing?
10. If i could buy any vehicle what would I get?
11. if i could play any sport what would I play?
12. how many kids do i want?
13. what breed of dog do i want?
14. what do i want to be when i grow up?
15. what is one of my favorite tv shows?
16. what do i fear most?
17. what is my least favorite food?
18. what is my fav. chocolate bar?
19. who in my family am i most closest to? (charly doesnt count haha)
20. what is something that annoys me? (pet peeve)
21. what is something i regret?
22. who is my best friend?
23. what do you like most about me? ;)
So there you have it. I am trying to think of anything else that is new or exciting but by the looks of this test, well ...let alone blog, there is obviously not anything exciting happening at the heidinger homestead. Anyway Its about time I started on my homework so Im not cramming last min. Its approximately 8:19 pm and its due tomorrow so anyone who knows me will be proud that Im starting it before midnight. Hope this blog redeems me from not writing one in such a very long time. season greetings to you all. good day.
